January 7, 2008...1:58 pm
Wow
Ok, so, yeah, wow…it’s been a long time. I just want to thank those of you out there that have encouraged me to start blogging again. I don’t know if I’ll be able to keep up with it like before, but we’ll see.
The reason I haven’t been around lately, on this blog or Suki’s, is because I left my husband a little over a month ago. It was a long time coming, but it was still really hard, and it still is, but I know it’s the right decision. It’s amazing to me how many people are like “Hey! Finally! Bout time!” Well, maybe not in those words, but, you know what I mean. My whole family is being so supportive and helpful, I know I couldn’t do it without them.
I kind of feel reborn, as stupid as that sounds. I got married at 19 and I’m 26 now, and those years were full of caring for children, a house, pets, paying bills and working when most of my friends were going to college, partying and dating around. And I think that time of your life should be that way. You need a time to be selfish so that when you’re ready to start a family you’ve had time to yourself and you can give yourself fully to others. But now I’m making time for myself and it feels so good. I’ve lost about 16 pounds (not that I was overweight, but I did have a little extra around my hips and thighs- don’t we all?) I’m blonde now (and not really sure how I feel about it) and, though I hate to think of myself as one of those girls that goes tanning, I do and you know what? Being tan rocks! It makes me feel better for some reason, so who cares, right?
Of course, the downside of being separated is I feel really lonely at night. It’s hard not having another adult around, so I’ve been picking up a couple extra shifts at work here and there just so I can be around my friends and not at home going crazy with screaming kids! And the money doesn’t hurt, either. I have about $1000 less every month, now, because he needs money to pay rent and food and whatever else, so I’m pretty broke.
Ok, enough babbling about my problems…from here on out I’ll document my dating adventures, hahaha! Yeah, right, maybe in a few months 
2 Comments
January 7, 2008 at 11:31 pm
Yay, you are back - woo hoo! I think this will be so therapeutic for you. I totally need to see you blond tho’…tan yes, but blond I’m having a hard time seeing it.
You are so right about the ‘time to be selfish’…I saw that with my sister who was a mom young and became a single mom too. Mind you, I’m not sure what my excuse is…I guess I’m still in that selfish stage!
Hang in there and know that I’m here for ya! Welcome back!
michele
January 9, 2008 at 3:33 pm
I’m kinda in the same boat as you - but I don’t have the balls quite yet to take the leap that you did, even though I know in my head that I would be much happier.
Hugs to you, and no wonder you’ve been gone! I think it’s wonderful that you are finally taking time for yourself. Those around you (like your children) will be happier when you are happy with yourself!
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